I sit here at work typing with a swollen hand. I feel like a wimp, while my mom and sister were here I watched my mom work tirelessly on my yard. She works harder than I can.. I had to stop last night when I started hurting. I see compulsion in the way that she works that I have alway tried to emulate to a destructive degree in the past. I don’t think it’s been entirely healthy for her either though. Anyhow, even with all the work done now I still spend my time kicking myself for the work not done, and being a homeowner the work is never be completely done, that’s the kicker.
So before I lament what’s not done, here is what is..
I still need to finish the edging on this part..
I think in a small way I have come to grips with what my limitations are with what I can accompish day to day. I had started to accept that, then when I became a mother.. and it was hammered home. You can’t parent properly and do a 76 hour remodel deathmarch, or packing or unpacking-fest, or anything where I would work from dawn till the middle of the night stopping for no one.
Acceptance is one thing, not still beating myself up for it is another.
#1 by Josh Baxter on August 25, 2010 - 1:25 pm
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Don’t beat yourself up for the work that still needs to be done…just remember that fixing what other people neglected is most of the battle! Being a homeowner is a lot of work, but it looks like things are moving along well. I can’t wait to see the finished product.